lucky girl

(shakes head)

look at me.

three days in a new city, and already i'm checking out where the yarn stores are.

i must really be hooked. or not, since i don't crochet (dorky guffaw).

fortunately the best three stores (at least, per user reviews) are close to my place.

yay.

except i'm hurting because of all the money i'm spending from relocation. so in my mind i can't afford to start anything new, or shop for knitting stuff, or whatever. plus i oughtn't, because there's a lot of unpacking and organizing to do around my home. plus i ought to be reading to get smart for work. plus it's like ninety-thousand degrees out right now, a little warm for working with yarn.

boo.

oh yeeeeeeah...

bunny.

(shakes head)

oh, bun. you know better than that. say it again, out loud.

"unsolicited knitted gifts may not be a good idea."

perhaps it would be wise not to force knitted objects upon my unsuspecting friends. i get these ideas to make "gifts" whenever i just want to try knitting something new. the pink madeline with the white trim, for example. it's done. it could maybe use one more trip through the washing machine. and i was just about to give it to someone, but i'm not sure how practical it is, really. and it's pretty cute for a hand-knitted object (cuter than the picture), but is it really cute enough to be used? for reals? in public? i dunno.

my pile of knitted objects with no use is growing. the stuffed animals i make usually leave my possession fairly quickly after completion (except penguin; he's mine), but i have, let's see, two bags made of kuryeon (curse you, noro!), one failed-to-felt madeline, one ug-gah-lee vomit-rainbow colored scarf out of lionbrand homespun (i really thought the yarn looked cool when i picked it out, and oh-ho-ho did it end up being beastly stuff) that will have to go in the donation bin at church (where the kids dress funky enough that someone might actually like it), umm, oh yeah, and the aforementioned cute pink madeline. i also have this random swatch of leftover kureyon because i don't know what to do with the yarn and it was expensive.

heidi? are you there? emily? margarita? what do you do when you have the itch to knit but you don't need anything and no one has requested anything?

why did i choose this hobby again?

and i still haven't made myself that blue scarf.

ooh.

a day off.

i want to knit.

to sit in my lovely living room and make stuff with the tv on in the background.

no, something within me says. you must do horrible responsible things on your to-do list that you do not want to do. for you are an adult. a responsible adult who takes care of herself.

looking at these two choices of my activities for the day (for who says i cannot do both? knit just for a little bit anyway, just an hour or two)

i feel very lonely.